The mind...

What is the mind?

I don't know what it is exactly...

But it feels as if it has it's own dimension...

and so easily it destroys what's around

10 years together!

“But to die as lovers may - to die together, so that they may live together.” - J. Sheridan Le Fanu, Carmilla

 "Comme un tout jeune oiseau qui tremble et qui palpite,
J'arrecherai ce coeur tout rouge de son sein,
Et, pour rassasier ma bête favorite,
Je le lui jetterai par terre avec dêdain!" 

Charles Baudelaire

Twilight

In my nightmares

In some distant cold world

Brimming with vicious creatures

Hang in there

All of me

Fire will go burning through

 So peerless was the man

At licking the Priest's opus

That Kitra foraged accross the unholy ground

In a flurry of lust to pleasure and possess him

The insipid ´Cain, the Moon's slave

For Awan was to involved in the cult of the Sun

Pierced in bloody forests as he reaped for his Goddess

And ran with the brute creation Kira had offered him

Gulping for life

Cain, roaming, gave in to Kitra's Sin

But not without her spreading her smirk around his pulsing neck

His undivine attention won

and fangs came to grips

But no seed ever passed from him

Rather than breaking away

Maintain something hateful

I no longer remember the excruciating pain

I just blew it

I guess I need a reminder of what it feels like to be abused

I must have looked for it

It could have been anyone else's words

Giving my tears to no one

When I loved, I got (ab)used

The thoughts flow through my mind

Your touch stays on my skin 

Your hateful words stay in my head

I feel it sinking in

Here come my insecurities

I almost expected you to leave.

Were you really loving me?

 Love, my dearest love

Both you and I know

We know the sad and melancholic truth

If it were real you and I

We wouldn't have all of these insane thoughts

Now our bed seems to be on fire

It's all smoke and fume around us

It's useless to try an escape

It's too late to try saving us

I've hurt you, I've killed something inside you

And you've taken revenge on me

Oh now it's too late

Pretty toy

What a pretty, pretty toy she was

A doll, a plastic doll

So she felt like

A toy for men and women to play with

So important they were these big adults

Way more filthy than she would ever be

There was a gun,

And a hole in her head

She was a bitch, no more than a bitch

Death was the best she could hope for

Her eyes, her heart

Her mind, her soul

What a wrecked pretty toy

 "Follow me" she whispered in my ear

She reached her hand out to me and her sweet dull eyes

I didn't had to listen to anyone else

Her voice would guide me through the path

In my soul you could see the lassitude and the comtempt

And we forged together my inhumanity

Together we executed my life

It was all over...

 Disclosing a faint sob

Do not forget to close my eyes for me

Sing for me before descend 

Pull me so I do not fall into the final sleep

I'll plunge beneath the ground before it finds me

Mourn for me and build a castle around me

Throughout a moat and plunge in to me

I'll mutter to your hear

While cradling you around my arms

Descending to death