13 - lucky number
Novembro 14, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
Still going.
Some days might be a bit more challenging than others, but still going.
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Novembro 14, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
Still going.
Some days might be a bit more challenging than others, but still going.
Junho 18, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
What a miracle it was to get a bedroom at DP,
After surviving the ultimate sin.
At DP they filled me with hopes that I could still live and be happy,
but then they threw me out onto the cold streets.
Don't worrt though, I still have my plan F.
I am only here because I needed to be run over once more.
I can't feel a thing, so I'll jump down into the deep down darkness.
This time there will be no lover to save me because I killed him
the first time I tried to jump.
Maio 19, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
Hold on, for a light at the end of the road...
It was a bright sunny day,
The sun could fill someone's heart...
Not mine though.
The world had fallen apart earlier within the year,
I kept trying to hold on for that light at the end of the road,
Although it kept getting ever more dim...
And as other people were out enjoying life,
I was being devoured from within...
My little demons and ghosts had been whispering
in my ears for a while now, and so I checked out...
As I started to sink and finally get some peace,
Out of nowhere, someone yelled: "you can never leave here",
I was being selfish, but weren't they being selfish too?
It felt like a good day to leave, for a second I felt peace amongst the chaos,
But they shoved me back into my seat,
For another ride in the tower of terror...
Fevereiro 08, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
The darkness within channelling
My own pathetic end.
Sympathetic words you had for me,
I wished you'd saved them,
Only needed the warmth and safety of your arms.
I walked for miles and found myself standing by your door,
Trying to find a quick fix for the excruciation.
Shattered dreams of happiness
The wild river runs in its full strength as I lay
Trying to die, with part of me hoping for you to show up,
Hold me tight in your arms, don't say anything, just hold me tight.
But you never showed up
The river came and with it I vanished.
Fevereiro 07, 2020
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
We are only here for a split of a second
Visions of a platonic love.
Defined by the tune of his life we were
I couldn't say no to the river running within his eyes
I know I should have run, yet I stayed besides him
At intervals he was loving and we were alone in the world, just us.
And then we weren't, and silent agony would set in
a giant icy wall in between us, that could grow taller than highest
Mountain on Earth
Along with that came the feeling of absolute emptiness and
Magnfying agony.
For how long can I keep on pretending to be strong?
I don't know how to explain, but yes,
I am falling down...
Setembro 10, 2019
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
You feel the ecstasy as you watch me
Lick my sour apple lollipop
Return the kindness by having a slice
of my homemade red velvet.
Get down on all fours and get real high with me
and please me real well.
Setembro 09, 2019
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
I left my majestic cloak by the edge of your bed
Like a cold warning to any unwanted competitors
That I exist in your life.
My mind and heart are constantly overwhelmed
With confusing visions of both happiness by your side
or a sad dance on a grave.
Do you feel equally insecure in us?
Or are my insecurities unreasonable?
Have I caught a lie of yours or were you just confused?
Do you know what you want from me?
When I try to flee you hold my arm and tell me to stay beside you
If I come close to you, you make me feel unwanted
And politely discharge me
Are you playing me?
Novembro 13, 2018
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
Maio 30, 2018
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
A minha mente está numa epífora
Maio 25, 2018
Isis Erzsébeth Báthory
"Vem por aqui" - dizem-me alguns com os olhos doces
Estendendo-me os braços, e seguros
De que seria bom que eu os ouvisse
Quando me dizem: "vem por aqui!"
Eu olho-os com olhos lassos,
(Há, nos olhos meus, ironias e cansaços)
E cruzo os braços,
E nunca vou por ali...
A minha glória é esta:
Criar desumanidade!
Não acompanhar ninguém.
- Que eu vivo com o mesmo sem-vontade
Com que rasguei o ventre à minha mãe
Não, não vou por aí! Só vou por onde
Me levam meus próprios passos...
Se ao que busco saber nenhum de vós responde
Por que me repetis: "vem por aqui!"?
Prefiro escorregar nos becos lamacentos,
Redemoinhar aos ventos,
Como farrapos, arrastar os pés sangrentos,
A ir por aí...
Se vim ao mundo, foi
Só para desflorar florestas virgens,
E desenhar meus próprios pés na areia inexplorada!
O mais que faço não vale nada.
Como, pois sereis vós
Que me dareis impulsos, ferramentas e coragem
Para eu derrubar os meus obstáculos?...
Corre, nas vossas veias, sangue velho dos avós,
E vós amais o que é fácil!
Eu amo o Longe e a Miragem,
Amo os abismos, as torrentes, os desertos...
Ide! Tendes estradas,
Tendes jardins, tendes canteiros,
Tendes pátria, tendes tectos,
E tendes regras, e tratados, e filósofos, e sábios...
Eu tenho a minha Loucura !
Levanto-a, como um facho, a arder na noite escura,
E sinto espuma, e sangue, e cânticos nos lábios...
Deus e o Diabo é que guiam, mais ninguém.
Todos tiveram pai, todos tiveram mãe;
Mas eu, que nunca principio nem acabo,
Nasci do amor que há entre Deus e o Diabo.
Ah, que ninguém me dê piedosas intenções!
Ninguém me peça definições!
Ninguém me diga: "vem por aqui"!
A minha vida é um vendaval que se soltou.
É uma onda que se alevantou.
É um átomo a mais que se animou...
Não sei por onde vou,
Não sei para onde vou
- Sei que não vou por aí!
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